I do, but not necessarily in the traditional way. I do not want everyone to know me, just the right people. For me, it is very important to have an idea, implement it, and then receive affirmation from the group of people my idea has been a blessing to.
That is the kind of fame I like.
And, of course, that rarely happens.
What I mean is that I do get affirmation, but not in the way I want it.
Dealing with me in the same way
God has this way of dealing with me, which has been very consistent over the years. Not surprise there, since He never changes. Many, many times the Lord provides an idea, a new concept for me to use as a good administrator of His grace.
Then, I run with the ball. I think about it. I design. I plan. I dream.
Later comes the implementation.
But rarely I get affirmation from those around me.
But almost in every case I get His affirmation. In private. Where only He and I know what is going on.
That is the way my Lord keeps my heart in check. That is the way He helps me to remain humble, defunding the idol factory I have in the middle of my chest.
Learning about me… and about Him
This process of getting private affirmation from Him has been good for me. It is not what I want, but it is exactly what I need.
In this process, I get to know me better. And He allows me to learn more about Him, too.
I’ve learned about my need to control, my need for success, and my desire to be the first one, the one that comes out on top.
I’ve learned about His mercy, and patience, and love, and grace… for me. All those deep theological concepts become more real, and practical, when I see them in action as an undeserved gift from Him to me.
That is what I need, in order to be a humble follower of Jesus Christ, in order to be a disciple of His.
For you to consider
- Do you know the ways our God deals with your heart?
- What have you learned, about you and about Him, in the process?
- Have you noticed any fruits of His work in you? How are you going to celebrate those?
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