A rampant attack of my sin, depression, sadness and how the Triune God of the Universe responded, showing me once again His holy and generous faithfulness.
The last few sermons I have preached have not been up to par; it is clear to me that business affects the quality of the sermons. Not that I believe, for a second, that God the Holy Spirit – the One who resurrected Christ Jesus from the tomb – is dependent on the quality I may be able to contribute to His work; it’s an issue of being a good steward of what God has given me. There were a few bright moments on what I have preached in the last two weeks and, for sure, His Truth was present.
It’s just that I have been more aware of my shortcomings.
And my own sin does not make things easier, let me tell you.
After all that, there is the natural concern for the members of my congregation. Oh, God! How I wish we all could experience a revival, like the ones Your church had years ago. That you, Holy Spirit, would take possession of a bigger territory in each of our hearts!
To this mix we can add also my personal challenges, my plans that have failed. Maybe it’s because I am getting old, but these failures seem bigger, more permanent, and of deeper consequences than before.
Considering all this, my heart sank. Depression came. Sadness extended.
I understand David.
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?Psalm 13:1-2
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I take counsel in my soul
and have sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me?
And then, because it pleased Him, He gave me evidence that He is at work among us: my wife and children, sandwiches and juice boxes, people holding hands, visitors, unsolicited encouragement, funds.
His Ascension and Session.
I am not alone. He is not quiet. He is not inactive.
Yes, I do understand David.
But I have trusted in your steadfast love;Psalm 13:5-6
my heart shall rejoice in your salvation.
6I will sing to the Lord,
because he has dealt bountifully with me.
What about you? How have the last two weeks of attempting to follow Christ Jesus in humility been for you?
Remember His grace, Follow Him in humility, Cultivate constantly, All in cultural diversity.