What to do when things are not working? How do you face the reality of all the effort you are putting in, and the almost null output? Quick answer: remember His Beauty.
I was taking a power nap, this afternoon, with the purpose of recharging a little, and then continue working on the arrangements for tomorrow’s worship service. To catch some real Zs, I was listening to a podcast about how to be a better creative. The host, almost at the beginning, is telling his own story of how he started “almost from nothing”… he only had 1000 followers in Twitter.
He considered that almost nothing.
What would he believe about me if he were to see my analytics? What should I think about everything I am doing? I tried to answer these questions in many ways, but none of the answers were pretty.
Well, honestly, it was the proper way to end my week.
It has been brutal.
Going into a mild depression, I thought about this blog and the benefits of writing without having an audience. This space is like my naked room: I can really see what’s going on in my heart (there isn’t, after all, any other distractions). Here I get to ask myself deep and significant questions: Why are you doing this? What are you going to do with that pain? And about that loneliness? Are you really going to preach that sermon, tomorrow?
Because it’s not my message, it is His. I’ll acknowledge my brokenness, and beg for His mercy. I am not alone; the Triune God of the Universe is right here, with me. And heck yes, I will preach that sermon tomorrow because it is His truth, and I know of at least one person who needs to hear the sermon: me.
As a humble follower of Jesus Christ you are not warrantied a painless life. But you are promised a clear view of His Beauty.
He has promised it, and He will deliver it.